So we need to talk...

I could tell in the tone of her vaoice that she wanted to tell me something. What could it be I thought? Is she getting re-married already? No! It's too soon for that I thought. I mean they already moved in together but that was because they were both in financial trouble. Well apparently he is not. He just bought her a new car. Something i could never do and she made that very clear.

So what is she going to tell me I thought as I listened to her voicemail. I could sense it in her voice. SHE'S PREGNANT I shouted in my head. Then i dreamnt about it. She is pregnant but I'm not going to call her.

I go and get my haircut over lunch. She is the sister of my ex's best friend. I ask how her sister is doing and then the bomb drops. Kate is pregnant. WHAT THE MOTHER FUCKING HELL DID SHE SAY! She saw the look in my eyes, I didn't know, but I kinda did know.

I call her back because I need to hear it from her. Voicemail "Hey I believe you asked me to call you back so hear I am. Give me a call when you have a chance"

I get the call, she tells me that she is almost done with the paperwork she said she'd have done months ago. Yeah big deal, get on with I'm thinking.

Oh the voice change, here is comes...I'm pregnant. You are? i say in my best acting voice. What I left off that sentence is "a slut ho bag" but if you don't say it out loud it doesn't really count right? I'm nice and say congratulations and I wish you healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby. Which is true, that wasn't a lie. I am proud of muself for that comment.

Then she speaks down to me...When you are in your next relationship blah blah blah...If you could see us together, you'd see that we really are gonna work out. In my head i thought, that's what they said about us. But that didn't turn out so well.

It was one year ago this weekend she told me she wanted a divorce. Right after her trip to Mexico with 2 other friends. Right before she left for Mexico we talked about having kids. I kinda wanted my first kid to be someone elses first kid too.