The call

Please let Dad pick up! Please let Dad pick up! Please let "Hi Dad, how are you?" "Good how are you?" "Well physically I'm OK, is Mom around too?" "No, she is in the shower. What's up?" "Well Kate gave me divorce papers yesterday"
That conversation went better than I thought it would. He was supportive and caring and if I had eaten that day I'm pretty sure i would have puked right there in the living room that was soon to be no longer mine.
FUCK!!! Now it was real! I asked her if she felt a wave of hatred? She knew right away I told my folks. She seemed relieved. I asked her if she had changed her mind. She walked away. I guess she had not. LOL!
Time to get drunk...again
I look for places in secret. I tell my neighbor. She blows up at me for not moving out yet. I tell her normally the person that wants out of the marriage leaves. THERE WAS A FIREFIGHT!!! I had signed a contract for an apartment by the weeks end. This made her happy and made me feel worse.
I had never had someone hate me before. Knowingly anyway. I've pissed Shane off before but that was a roommate stupid drunk fight. It wasn't a forever thing.
Shit, this was my first time breaking up with a girl!! I was hoping I could go through life never doing that. I don't want to be divorced!! This was the girl I lost my virginity to. I had thought I might like to try sex with other girls but never wanted that to come true. I don't want to date! I sucked at it the forst time around. Why would i be better at it now? I was pissed now! I saw her through school, cancer, her Dad's death, her Aunt's death, I moved to Oshkosh, I gave up a good job, we bought a house 4 doors down from her mom, she got sick again with Addison's disease and I was there. Who the fuck else was going to do that for her? I get depressed for 10 months and she gets pissed at me. Doesn't help me, gets angry and wants a break. That snapped me out of my depression. Damn I'm angry now! Why does she get to change her mind and I'm supposed to jump 10 feet to make it happen quickly. Fuck that! I'm doing what i need to do.
Lets get drunk!!!
Holy shit the summer is going by fast. I'm moving out soon. And all she can do is be happy about it. Why is this not affecting her with saddness. She is like a robot. no emotion, no nothing. This is not the person I married.
Please, yes I'll have another 7&7