The last night

My 3 best friends can't/won't make it to the overall city for the move out! Am I that shitty of a friend? I guess I didn't make it obvious that I need friends this weekend. JB is coming though. Why the fuck is JB coming? I've been a shitty friend to him since he quit drinking. Fuck, JB will drive us, he don't mind. I never made a point of seeing him in the last few years when I went back to MN. But he is coming. He's leaving at 4:30am, that's a friend right there.
I tell her that this is it. The marriage is over starting tomorrow. She tells me that it's been over for a while now. We agree to disagree for the sake of not arguing tonight. Will we have sex one last time? It's been since May. It's the week after labor day now. We start to pack my things. She has the kitchen already separated. We go the basement. We are done in 2 hours and we start to talk. It's nice to talk to her now. She is happier knowing I'll be gone tomorrow. She tries to go to bed.
We hug. I don't want to let go. She tries to leave, I squeeze tighter. This is probably the hug she always wanted from me that I never gave her until now. I know once I let go the marriage is over! I let go and with tears in my eyes say goodnight and go downstairs to cry and punch the air.
I made a 6 song CD and put it in her car for her to listen to. It was my goodbye CD to her. It was a poor effort but I didn't have much time anymore. The next day she was going to meet a "friend" who is a guy. She was staying at his house cause he lives near the Dells. Why did she have to tell me that? How could she move on already? And on the day I move out.
Somehow I fall asleep in the house that I thought I'd live in for at least the next 10 years. Tomorrow is going to suck.